Sir Jaron; An Inspiration from CCP Admission Office

November 21, 2013

Today, I’ve met a very inspiring person. I went to my current school to drop all my subjects because of my medical conditions, because my parents and my doctor advised me to stay at home, be monitored by time to time, and rest. They thought that I could be treated well by isolating myself from all stresses and pressures outside the real world.

Anyway, I’ve met this person because I was arranging my dropping documents to have a chance to refund my tuition I already paid for down payment. As I went to the admission office, I was told to wait for the director who’s in charge of signing my request.

He’s name is Jose Ronaldo ‘Jaron’ E. Agustin, Director for Admission. Of course he asked me what was my reason, so I told him. He shared his own experience. He was also diagnosed to have a Depression just like what I have, but mine is yeah, worst than his. He went for counseling, took medications and therapies. But the best part of his stories is how he helped himself to raise again. We talked for almost one a half hour. I was crying really hard while he kept on saying inspirational things about life. He even showed some quotations, medications and poems to convince me that I should continue schooling. I was with Nanay and she just sat there, allowing us to talk.

I could not detail all words he has said, but I will always be thankful that I’ve met him, that I had a chance to talk to him before I finally leave the school. He told me that he will support me and he is even willing to help me to start all over again, that I could drop in his office sometimes if I needed someone to talk to. Before we left, I told him that he inspired me more than my doctor could, then he gave me a dark chocolate flavor of Toblerene and asked me to eat it, think everything what should I do then sleep peacefully.

I am very grateful that there’s some people like him never get tired of telling and encouraging me that I should because some things will come, in God’s perfect time, that should just hold on to my faith and everything will fall out in to its right places. 

To him, Sir Jaron, thank you so much for letting me be heard your stories, to be able to met and talked to you. I am so glad that God allow us to meet, so you could inspire me. You become an eye-opener to me. God bless you more, so you could still inspire a lot of people.

Now, I talked to my family and asked for their permission to allow me to try attending classes once more. I promise this time that I will really try my best to behave and not to think for bad ideas.

I know I will survive, I know I could lift from the ground, I could be okay as long as I have my loving and very supportive family, and also, to those people who never judge and let me feel their presence. Thank you for everything.

Bangon Pilipinas; Tulong Na, Tabang Na, Tayo Na

November 13, 2013 9:04 PM

We've been watching different news in any stations, been hearing bad news and hurtful scenarios which make us cry and it all because of Typhoon Yolanda.

Other articles have already tackled the details about the said typhoon that destroyed the lives of many people in the central area of the Philippines. They've been counting and making coverage of the dead people there. They also told and explain us how it happened. That news really softens our hearts, especially us, Filipinos.

As my family witnessed the painful experience of the people in Visayas, because we’re also one of the victims of Typhoon Ondoy back in 2009, we have felt their pain and suffering. You can overhear their voices, asking for helps to all of us.

That’s why my family decides to give our simple help to them. We have talked that we will pack all our unused but usable clothes for them. We will also add diapers for the babies, sanitary napkins for the women, alcohols and others things. We will give it straight to the ABS-CBN as our donation, hopefully this coming Sunday, which happen to be my 21^st birthday.

As we planned those things, I've already asked some people to reach out their help for the victims. They really need everything that we could give. But most importantly, they need our prayers.

Let us pray for the souls of the lives who passed away because of the typhoon and the strength for their family. God didn't punish us, just like other nations thought. He loves us and He will provide. He will just let us be strong enough to face and rise again after those different tragedies. Filipino people will survive all these trials with a smile on their faces.

God bless us all. Mama Mary loves us.

Peace of Mind while Goya Chocolate in the Other Hand

November 13, 2013 9:08 AM

O yea. I’m in the school right now. My only class for this day at 7:30 in the morning up to 1:30 in the afternoon is Architectural Design 7, yet I am here in the balcony, sitting, waiting and still waiting.

I went out for a walk. I was looking for a computer shop near the area, but I found nothing. I feel so kinda bored of their class system. It’s been a week since the class opening and I haven’t meets any of my subjects’ instructors.

Earlier, I approached a man, asked and befriend him. He’s name is Isaac, a returnee student who worked for so long and then decided to study again. He’s married and has a child. He’s the first person that I've approached in my new life. We have talked about our different experiences in the field of Architecture. I was very impressed to all of his experiences in our field.

I am happy and glad that I've met and able to talked to a new person. I've just realized that I starting to like this place, the school campus, the silence, the schedule, the breeze and air, the peace I am feeling right now.

Something Changed

November 07, 2013 5:50 PM

I left the school as soon as I realized that I won’t be okay alone, went home, and then left again. I just talked to someone who had been very special to me and I just thought that he could give me good mood because I’ve been very sad and crying since this morning. But something changed.

I won’t detail the scenario here because I still wanna protect the person’s identity. We talked, we laughed just like the old times, and then something has changed.

From teasing each other, we went to the crucial part, which are the serious matters between the two of us. He talked and explains everything that we should have tackled a long time ago. I remained silent, trying to keep my tears away. But as he goes farther, the emotion went down and ate me. I cried a lot. I was crying and I just have to hold me and explain again. It was very painful. The conversation was so sad. I really got hurt. He hugged me, kissed me and told me that we have to focus on what we have right now. He is already committed and very contented to his girl. I told him I am happy for them, but I know in my heart I don’t.

He was convincing me to fight and move forward. That past is past. I was still crying when he kissed and hugged me once more.

I left the place, I still the pain, yet I feel stronger after our conversation. I won’t deny that he help me to realize something, that something has changed. That I gotta go to what my life right now.

He will always be special to me. He was my best friend and my little brother before, and then turned to be my boyfriend in the year 2010. We’ve been separated for years, but I know he will stay concern to whatever’s happening to me.

To him, thank you so much for loving me then, for understanding and accepting the real me. Thank you for making me realize that love is wonderful. I love you always.

And by the way, if you have read this post, I will tell you that his name is John Vanielle Navato.

Cleaning the Air; New Lif

November 07, 2013 9:01 AM

I’m here in the school, Central College of the Philippines. This is my first day of school as a fourth year Architecture student in this new campus.

As I woke up this morning, the first thing that comes o my mind was, I gotta leave the bed quickly, eat and prepare so I could join Bebe to her morning routine. We rode a FX, I took the train, walked from there to the overpass. I was very nervous and scared. So I was out my mind when I stepped up right foot the run of the stair, I slipped then fell down, whatta good way to start the morning, right?

I walked in the school gate, asked the guard where’s the school canteen, went to the clinic, asked by the Physician about my illness, went to the bookstore for my ID application, proceed to the Architecture Department and Registrar to give my transfer credentials, went upstairs, looked for my classroom and then, yeah, I am here, alone. Sigh.

Earlier I saw something interesting. Thank God! CCP have a ramp, consideration for those persons who have disability, which TIPQC doesn’t even provide.

I am still looking for something in this place to help me encourage going to school and pursuit my dreams, hoping for a better point of view this time.

Happy Birthday Kuya Sam!

November 05, 2013 9:56PM

I would like to make this message to be public, kasi I want the people to know how grateful I am to have a loving Kuya like you.

1. Happy Birthday. Haha.

2. May iniwan po akong maliit na cake sa pintuan nyo. Medyo trespassing lang po. Wala kasing tao. Patay ilaw. Walang sumasagot at bukas ang gate. Hehe. Pumasok na ko Kuya ha? Nilapag ko lang yung gift ko. 

3. Dumating naman po agad sila Tita at Tito kaya sinabi ko rin na ibigay nalang iyun sayo. Hehe.

4. November 5, 2013 palang. Pero gusto ko na ito i-post.

5. Matanda ka na. Haha. Akalain mong ang tanda mo na? At mas matanda ka parin sakin? 

6. Nakakatuwang isipin na ang tagal mo na sa buhay ko. Nakakatuwa.

7. I will always be proud and very happy to have someone like you. Real Kuya kita by heart. Di man tayo blood related.

8. Alam mo naman na mahal kita. Mahal ka namin. Madalas kong sabihin kila Julie at Ruby na di ko keri pag wala ka. Ayoko mang maging super dependent. Basta yung idea lang na andyan ka. Okey na ako.

9. I really admire your attitude na, you’re not scared to share your talents. You’re patience.

10. I will always be thankful to all the things we’ve share, to all those things you’ve taught, from my preparation for UPCAT, to my Advance Algebra, Trigonometry, Physics, Solid Mensuration, Differential and Integral Calculus, Strength of Materials, Theory of Structures and all other subjects. Ikaw na matalino! Hehe.

11. You used to call me “Drama Queen”, thank you for that. Haha. Di natin akalain na didibdibin ko yan at mag kaka Depression ako. Thank you for staying. For understanding me, for helping me. Sa lahat na Kuya. Maraming salamat talaga.

12. Salamat sa walang sawang pakikinig at pag babasa ng mga messages ko, alam ko busy ka. Pasensya na.

13. Thank you for loving us, for loving me, for loving all the people in Familia, for being a role model to all of us.

14. Kuya Sam, stay healthy, stay happy, you know naman na all I want for you is happiness. Peace of mind, healthy heart, good health. Hinay hinay sa mga gawain. Madalas mo atang makalimutan na tao ka at napapagod, pahinga pahinga rin pag may time ha?

15. Again, Happy Birthday. You’re one of the important man in my life. You will always be my Kuya. Mag aasawa ka man, o maunahan man kita. Haha. No choice ka na. I love you Kuya Sam! Be happy, thank you for everything and God bless. 

Realization: Life Is Good

October 27, 2013 10:10PM

Life is good. I know right. But you see, I was been blind for so long, I was been in pain and loneliness for years, that I haven’t seen the good side of it.

I had my monthly checkup last Friday, October 25, 2013 with my Psychiatrist and Neurologist, Dra Jacqueline E. Banzon in St. Victoria Hospital in Marikina. I was assigned to think to what will be my future plans, though I’m an Architecture student and I should be an expert to do planning different scenarios, I still found it very hard to deal with.

I’ve been meditating in this illness since last July. Having Severe Major Depression Disorder is really a difficult thing. You gotta understand its symptoms and signs, you have to control your thoughts and emotions and you have to hold on to the idea that life is good. It’s hard. Not all people are capable of understanding your situation. I lost some people in my life because of it, but I wouldn’t deny that I had a better point of view after this.

Life is good. I love my family, my friends, and those people who stay and believe that I could survive. But I still love those gals who broke my heart. They will always have a special part in my life. Thanks to them. I’m stronger now.

I love my family. My parents, my Nanay and Tatay, my sisters, Ate Phen, Ate Jho, Ate Yhong, Bebe, my nieces, Jade and Chacha, my nephews, Kuya Mo and Siopao, and those kuyas, Kuya Jerry, Kuya Danny, Kuya Eric. I love my one big happy family so much. They stay and help me to get through of this weakness. I love them all.

I love my friends. Kuya Sam, Julie, Sweet, Eliza, Daryl, Analyn, Janeso, Kuya Melchor, Jonas, Marvin, Ate Abby, Ruby, Bryce and others. I love them for everything, for trying to understand me. I love them all, and those people who I forgot to mention.

I love my former co-workers. Sir Alain, Rosanna, Kuya Larry, Jonas, Ren and all the people who are part of Matrix Design. I know they love me too. Thanks to them. 

I love God. I am so grateful and really thankful for all the blessings. I am also glad for those trials I’ve faced and also to those future problems I will still face.  He loves me, so He let me experience all of these things, He love me so that He also gave me so many people to love. Thank God. I love the Lord.

I love all those people who don’t feel tired of encouraging me that life is good. I love them all, thanks to them, I love life now. J

Killing My Own: Suicide

October 04, 2013 9:56PM

Did you ever feel like you want to put an end to something? That you want to leave all these things behind yet you can’t find the right ways to do so?

So here it is. I will tackle about this disturbing word that has been famous nowadays:

Suicide.

I don’t have to define what the meaning of this word is. All of us know its definition and how to act it. But whenever we heard someone attempt to do it or you read an article that talks about it, we becomes very attentive. 

Why?

That is the common question asked whenever someone commits suicide. Why? Why he do that? Why? Why? But wait, why do you even have to know why?

I wouldn’t lecture something here. I don’t want to be righteous about it, because honestly, I was part of that word.

To us, suicide is not a silly act. Please stop saying that were so insane to think about it, because in the first place, you don’t have any idea why want to kill ourselves. Suicide is our best solution to our problems. We actually don’t care about the world’s opinion. But wait, I’m not telling these things to convince the crowd that its ok to do suicide. I’m just trying to give justification for those people like me, especially to those who succeed in doing it, who see suicide as a key to our problems.

I, told once to myself, that I don’t actually wanna die, I just want the pain to stop. Being hurt in any reasons are the common reasons why we thought of it. Some pains that don’t fade away, those hurtful things that we want to forget. We also wanna live, yet we find it very hard, spare us.

If you will ask me if still think of it, yeah, most of the times. The only reason why I still live is my family. I don’t want them to feel the pain I’ve been holding. I still see it as a solution but I rather choose to move forward. A suicidal person needs love and medication. We are not insane. We’re human who needs special treatment because we feel like nothing is good in living. I’ve been taking medication and attending counseling. I was diagnosed of having a Severe Major Depression Disorder so I have to take those treatments. My doctor take cares of me and assure me that as long as I submit myself to the medication, I will be fine.

I can say that I am better now compared to the last two years of my life. I’ve been in dark days of my life which made me think of suicide, but you see, I still live. I could able to tell these things to those gals who still think of suicide. I won’t stop you nor push you to do it. You have your personal reasons that we won’t ever understand. I just want to give my sympathy to you my friend. Choose what is the best.

Broken Hearted: It Hurts. Help Me Out.

October 4, 2013 4:39PM

A lot of people are dealing with these kinds of feelings. Most of us are still seeking of an answer, a solution, even a cure. But come to think of it, is there any a right method or treatment for a broken heart?

Love is defined by different words and phrases. Each one of us has different beliefs and definitions of love. Love is so powerful and great. You can do crazy stuffs that you never even imagine you are capable of doing so. We give a lot when we were in love. We think of the person is special to us and forgot to keep a little for ourselves. We are willing to do anything for love.

It is very wonderful. It feels heaven. Yet in return, when we got hurt, we really feel the worst feeling we could ever feel. The heartaches can make us ill. It makes us disable to do our usual habits. It makes us weak and incapable.

I’ve been reading several articles, even tries many of them, how to move on, how to deal with a broken heart, how to ease the pain, how to forget the person who hurt you, how to cure and heal the wound inside and many more.

As an ordinary people, I love and got hurt too. I am as desperate as others to find answers to those damn thoughts I’ve been dealing, and I’m still a one person who keeps on finding if there’s any pattern or methods on how to get these feeling out of my world. So as I search and browse the internet, I’ve collaborate all these things I think could help us, even just to lessen the crazy feeling were holding inside.

Things You Could Do To Lessen the Pain

1. Join an organization –believe me, when I say join, make it really real. Do some stuffs you never been try to do. Jump to different world, make new friends. Have some time to meet new people that won’t remind you the person you once love.
2. Keep yourself busy –well, these thing won’t work in my case, but may be possible to other people. Do the house chores. Cut the grass in the garden. Study your lessons in Calculus. Paint a masterpiece. You can do anything you want. Just try not to harm yourself, ‘kay?
3. Make new friends – yeah, I’ve mentioned that you could join organization or a club for a change, but meeting new friends might help you a lot. You see, those people you had once were actually the big reminder of the person you wanna forget. These people might be your good buddies for so long, but letting yourself away from them for awhile might help. You just gotta explain to them nicely so they won’t be offended.
4. Drink a little –oh jeez! For those people who keep on saying that drinking won’t help you, that is not actually true! You can forget them, those gals you wanna forget, but unfortunately, just for awhile. It helped you, c’mon. Drinking a bottle of liquor won’t kill you. You could try it for once. Hehe.
5. Date someone –I’m not saying here to look for someone then jump to him for a rebound thing. No. Using someone to totally forget the old one is wrong. But you’re also allowed to meet new character to make yourself realize that there still a hope after that failed relationship.
6. Beautify yourself girl! –for general, trying to fix and pick up you from the senti mode is kinda hard. Yeah. We cry a lot, we rather stay in bed the whole day with all your windows close, we want to feel alone. But hey! You gotta cheer up. Go, move forward. You don’t actually have to be very ok, because its really hard, I know, but at least make some moves to make yourself presentable. Better if you go face the mirror and notice that you’re making yourself look older. Being beautiful and presentable enough can gain you confidence to move on. Go girl!
7. Go home, feel your family –I am very fortunate that I see my family as a friend. Just like to any other people, our family is the greatest gift we could ever have. You see, when in times of grief, you will always find yourself being in your family. You don’t have to tell them words by words what is really running in your brain. The least thing you could do is to spend time with them. Laugh and talk with them. You’ll feel a lot better.
8. Let’s exercise –yey! I’ve tried it so many times. And yeah. It help, getting fit will lift up your emotions. Who knows, your ex might regret hurting you when he see you sexier. 
9. Cry, cry and cry –there’s nothing wrong about crying. It will help you a lot. Go, let your tears fall, feel the pain, cry all your hatred and grief. Then after you cry, tell yourself that everything’s gonna be alright, even you think it will take you so long to be really ok.
10. Pray –we all have faith in our Almighty God. Let’s surrender all our loneliness and sorrows to Him. God will always have a better plan for all of us. He will provide. You know that.

These things are just actually based on what I’ve learned by reading and personal experiences. Being broken hearted is not a bad thing. You feel the pain because you love truly. You are actually being proud of it. All of us will eventually realize that life is more exciting after you surpass these trials. Be brave, stay pretty and love will find you again, maybe for real, ayt?

Dear Future Boyfriend

October 3, 2013 1:16PM

Dear Future Boyfriend,

It’s really hard to put all my feelings into words. I keep on writing and then erasing it after I type these words. My reason on writing this letter is because I want to share my thoughts to you in these days that I’m still waiting for you. Yeah. I am waiting for you.

I want you to realize how my life seems so wrong for the few years. I’ve been dwelling in a nightmare that I still don’t know to let go. It’s exactly two months and twenty five days since the first time I went to hospital to ask for a help. I know too, that once you have read this, you have already proven to me yourself. People says that its ok not to be ok, and yeah, I still don’t feel ok. I’ve been dealing for so many thoughts that I think only worsen my case. I’ve been battling to this and even I already knew the answers, I still keep on coming back to where I failed.

I keep on thinking and trying to visualize your looks, your actions and your treatment to me. I just also want you to know that you really have to be careful on loving me, because I still have a healing wound inside me. Please try to understand my attitude whenever I get jealous, I may be just scared to lose you, because I’ve lost so many people in the past. I may be also possessive, which I think is not healthy for us. Don’t stop on trying to make me understand that its not good. Whenever I nag and keeps on telling hate things to hurt you, just make me stop by hugging me, that’s what makes me feel so loved after that fight. Always reassure me that I’m your only one whenever I feel so skeptic about you. I may be very doubtful in your actions, I know its not good, but I really can’t stop doing that because I was been fooled several times. Please forgive me on acting like that. When I start crying, just hold, kiss me and tell me you love me.

I know it will be difficult for you to understand my behavior. I may be very immature and childish. I might do stupid actions that would make you mad. I’m so sorry. I know I won’t be an ideal girl for you, but please let me deal with it. I will try to change.

My love, proving yourself to my family is what I really want you to do from the very start. You know, they love me so much, they saw what I’ve been through and what’s best is what they really wish for me. Just be yourself, I will surely introduce you to them, and you just have to talk to them nicely. My family is the most important thing to me, so I also want you to respect and value them. In return, I’ll be very good when you introduce me to yours. I’m not perfect, so you are. We both have different characteristics that sometimes might collide. Let’s just stop and talk for awhile. Let me feel you, as you feel me. We can’t have an ideal relationship, but that what makes us love more. Do take care of me because I will do it too to you, with all my heart and soul. I love you.

Love lots,

Me

Have You Ever Been Cheated?

September 23, 2013 10:32PM

Have you ever been experience to being cheated? Or you’re the one who cheat? Well, in that issue, I would be very honest, I once experience to cheat but in return, I was cheated several times. Jeez! Karma isn’t it?

Cheating is defined as an act of achieving or doing something in an illegal way. It is about breaking a rule for a certain thing, usually identified in examinations. But cheating has a different meaning when in comes to a commitment and cheating can be done by different forms. It can be physical, emotional and even online.

5 Signs that you’re Partner Is Cheating

•  He detach you from their family –as a partner, you want to be acknowledge by his family. You also want to be invited and attend their family gathering, because literally, you want to be part of his family, but the sad part is, he keeps refusing the idea and instead of telling the reasons, he will just jump to another topic.
• He won’t allow you to use his phone –most of the people who are in a relationship cross the boundaries of privacy. The idea of a letting your partner access your personal things are common, though some are just strict about this. So when your boyfriend rejecting you from using his phone without valid reasons, think.
• In regards with the phone issues, he doesn’t call or text you often as he did before –being busy in his career is really a valid reason, but we all know that when you love someone and you’re in a commitment, you will always find time to make at least a simple remainder you still exist.
• Mood swing –he seems irritated on simple thing that doesn’t please him. They sometimes use the opportunity to argue with you and make a big scene.
• He has a mysterious friend -he has a regular pal that he doesn’t want you to meet.

Personal Experience

I couldn’t tell the whole scenario of my experience, so I’ll just try to make it brief. I was in my fourth relationship then, my current boyfriend had been very busy on this study, so am I, but meeting and spending some times together were quite impossible to us. So I was distracted by someone special to me before my guy, he have been very attentive on what I tell him and he gave the attention that I want from my boyfriend. So in other words, I got this special feeling for this someone without the realization of my guy, and I know I was cheating already.

In another story, I was cheated several times by the same guy. He was my fifth boyfriend and I was madly in love to him. I gave what I think what will make him happy, only to be cheated by him. It was very painful, I know, and I even curse him to death.

Cheating is actually a sin, in every other way we see it. I was once became a cheater and I was punished by it, so somebody cheated on me too. That’s the game of life.

My New Found Love

September 11, 2013 4:31PM

I’ve never been in love like this before. I just realize this feeling one day, as I open my eyes in the morning. I fall in love with the idea of doing anything about artworks.

I always say that music is my first love. I’ve been singing since the day I knew how to do it, though at the first chapter of my so-called singing career of mine, I found it very difficult to convince myself that I could really sing. Music has a very special part in my life and I know that my life wouldn’t be as wonderful as it is when there’s no music. So that is my first love.

As I claim that music is my very first love, I also know that by heart, Architecture is my one and only true love. Being an Architecture student for almost five years of my life have been very challenging. You have to deal with so many things and you also have to face the hectic schedule as you go into its different phases. Whenever I think of those things in my life, I can’t help but to wonder. It’s really amazing how I went to different stages just to achieve these things. Music is like Architecture, they blend to one person’s life. You don’t have to be born an Architect or a Singer. You just have to be patience in getting the right characteristics to be one of them, to be a real Architect and a Singer/Musician. Practice is the secret of it. There’s no one-night-produce to be one of them, just have patience on practicing over and over.

But the magnificent part of this is I fall in love again. These past few days, I’ve been dealing with so much confusion on my mind. I still don’t have an answer to what my doctor questions, what will be my short-term plans? It brings headaches and yeah, even heartaches, whenever I think of it. I’m still not sure about my plans for the coming months. I’m not yet ready. So as I think of those stuffs daily, that I have do something worthy, I’ve realize one thing, I want to be a real artist. I love the idea of me doing so many things about arts crafts and I being so in love with it more and more.

In order to make those goals possible, I have to go on to several steps.

1.      Tools –you need a tool to make it possible, art tools to be specific. But there’s a plenty of tools and we need to be very precise on picking one.

2.      Money –let’s be realistic. Money is what we really need to start a business or hobby that involves art.

3.      Workspace –you have to make an effort to find a right place for it. In my situation, my room will also serve as my studio, as if I have a choice. Hehe.

4.      Talent –oh c’mon, these is the basic.

5.      Interest –just like talent, you have to have an interest on what everything’s you plan to do.

6.      Heart –love what you do. Put your heart on it. Feel each process and build it with passion. That is the greatest tool.

I’m Not Sexy, So What?

September 02, 2013 10:05 PM

Often times, I think that life is being so unfair. Well, yeah, technically, it’s not really fair. Why some people are fortunate? Why most are not? Why there are poor and rich? Why there are ugly and beautiful? Why measurements and weights are an issue to everyone?

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I’m actually one of those people who frequently ask why life is not fair, especially when it comes to physical appearance. Nah! I’m confident that I’m not ugly, but I’m not also beautiful compared to others. Good thing that my mother tells me I’m pretty, at least there’s a little encouragement on my part. Come to think of it. Isn’t it nice if all of us have an equal blessing? That would be a great idea, isn’t it? But those are just a wild dream. We have to deal in our differences and accept what God gave to us.

But wait, is being beautiful and sexy are really a requirement?

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Physical appearance is just an outer layer of our personality. Most of us deceive in what a person looks a like without realizing the real beauty is inside the person’s heart. Just like in taking a body measurements. Sure we all wants to be physical fit. We love to dress up in different types and sizes of clothes, to walk with full confidence in a crowd, to be adored and be love. But not all of us are given that kind of opportunity.

Jim Morrison, an America singer-song writer and poet thought that fat was beautiful. He describes that being fat made him feel a giant, powerful mammal. His views on eating and body image are quite refreshing. That obsession with size and weight is tricky.

Is being fat has really an advantage? Here’s my list.

Advantages of Being Fat

• Huggable –the good thing about hugging a fat or chubby person is that, when you hug them, you really HUG them big. You’ll experience the floppy and comfortable feeling that will keep you on coming back for more.

• People don’t expect you to be athletic –when you’re P.E teacher asks you to do some exercise demos for your class, they won’t expect you to perfect it. In another thing, maybe it can be your excuse to not be their pet.

• You won’t make negative comments to others –surely, when ask, you won’t give bad comments against others because you exactly feel what they might feel when tell them those.

• You will always be cautious to what will you do –some people really act so clumsy that end up to inappropriate scenarios. But when you’re larger or heavier than others, you’ll always be aware of what you act or speak, since you think that you catch more attention than slim persons, because technically, you’re visually larger than them. That’s not bad idea ayt?

• You can eat what you want –that’s the real spirit. You can choose whatever you like. You will not be like the other people who are so conscious on what they eat, that they could actually bring a calculator so that they can compute each carbs they take in.

• Nanay will be very happy –seriously, when you thought a lot about your diet plan, you might skip the dinner and forgot that you’re mother exert a lot of time and effort to prepare a meal. Making her happy is actually great.

http://www.websnackerblog.com/2013/07/fat-is-beautiful.html

Despite of the negative comments about being fat and the health risk, the good side should be considered. Being fat is not a crime. It is just an exterior part of you. The real you are beneath of those fats around your belly. The real you are inside your heart and soul. You are beautiful no matter what the world says about you. You could be attractive and sexy thru your attitudes and points of view in life. We all know that being fit is health. But being fat is also an opportunity to test those people to love you aside from your appearance. You’re God’s greatest creature. You are beautiful, just be you.

You’re So Addictive My Dear Coffee

September 02. 2013 9:40 PM

Is there anyone who doesn't want coffee? I was one of them then, until I experience and fall in love with it.

http://creattica.com/logos/coffee-cup/19933

I was a not coffee dependent before. I’d rather drink a cup of hot choco. I could able to do all my task and commitments. My life is normal and simple. I just wake up every morning feeling contented and could sleep at night in at peace feeling. That was my life before I turned to be an addict. Oh yeah. I’ve changed. I’m still not yet sure if it’s for good or what. All I can just say is that, I love it. Well. I’m not talking about my life in general; it’s all more of my relationship with coffee. Haha.

Coffee is a brewed beverage prepared from the roasted seeds of several species of an evergreen shrub of the genus Coffea. That was according to my researches, but basically, coffee is just a drink that makes us all complete. It deserves my compliments, of course!

I was in my first year in college when drinking coffee has been my habit. My lifestyle had to change. I have to make some extra effort to shift my night in to daylight, and to stay awake in the middle of the night. I have to stay alive in order to make good grades. With so much drawing plates and projects to finish, I have to look up for a companion to make myself active, and that is coffee. That was in year 2009. I am now an avid fan of coffee despite its negative effect on me and up to now, my days won’t be complete if I haven’t drink even a single cup of coffee. Coffee is really addictive because it contains caffeine. But for those people like me who won’t survive without it, cheers!

The Gayuma Ni Maria Experience

I was curious about this restaurant named Gayuma ni Maria in Sikatuna Village, Quezon City. I've just heard and found it when I scanned some blogs in the internet. Most of the blogs I've read, praise and adore this restaurants. I was still working in Makati that time and I can't find a spare time to visit the place. Until I forget about it.

Last June 22, 2013, I told my sister Juliet about it and opened the idea of giving it a try since where on our way to somewhere in Quezon City. I just Google how to locate the restaurant. From Fortune, Marikina, we took up a jeepney going to Cubao. We went down to Anonas then road another jeep going to City Hall. We stopped in the corner where Jolibee is located. I'm not sure about the exact address but we took a walk going to Savemore Supermarket, then turned left and found V Luna Ext. The exact address of the restaurant is in 123 V Luna Ext., Sikatuna Village, Quezon City (Sorry for the low quality photos).

The place is cozy and has this romantic ambiance. The first thing that I tell my sister was "Para sa mga mag da-date pala dito" then I grinned. But seriously, I was a bit disappointed when I saw the restaurant. I was expect larger space for the dining area. 

We chose the table the is nearer to the counter. The waiter immediately gave the menu list to us. I was amazed when I saw the name of dishes. Those names are sounds very interesting that I could even think what kind of foods are they, so we just asked for a description coming the waiter. 

So what will I choose? 

As for merienda, I chose I'm Wild For You. Unfortunately I forgot the name of the dish my sisters chose, but It also has a Pasta thing.

The foods we asked are very delicious. I do love the unique taste of my I'm Wild For You. It's not sweet, It's just perfect. We felt so busog agad, by also the help of bottom less Ice Tea. 

Beat Sex Anyday

Feeling excited? :)

Pavlova Cake

We also try their desserts. I picked up Beats Sex Anyday and Toto chose Pavlova Cake. 

In the other side of the Gayuma Ni Maria's corner, placed a numbers of souvenirs that you could buy. 

Naughty Stuffs Section

You naughty!

Sip?

Upstairs. A japanese type of living room.

Dining Area outside

I really enjoyed the food and experience of Gayuma Ni Maria. I very much recommend it to anyone who loves to eat! They food are so amazing and very delicious. 

Dining Area outside

Time to pay the bills